I GIVE UP, I SURRENDER!!
Follower of Christ Friday by Brandi Bell I have back surgery in 5 days as I write this. I have had surgery before, 3 c-sections for my babies, but never anything like this. Over the past 2 months you know what I have determined? I don't have any control over this situation. I can't medicate myself. I can't exercise to be better. I have been to different types of health care providers, and unfortunately they can only offer temporary fixes. No, nothing I can personally do will make my back better. I have to have this surgery. Before the news that I would need this, I had in my mind if I could do blank, or if they could do that, then I could handle it. Really what I was saying is that I could CONTROL it! When the surgeon said "You have done everything else, surgery is the only option now." A sense of peace came over me. I would normally have been upset at the thought of someone needing to cut me open, yet God had given me a sense